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Everyday I reach a new low Never really seeing a high point Or feeling anything but the wind blow I need something to get me out of this No one sees how I feel I mean how could they know Losing all sense of love and happiness Just feeling forgotten wherever I go I'm holding onto the pieces I have left But with them I have no room to grow Maybe its not me thats forgotten But the bits worth remembering No one sees the good things just the rotten I've tried to remind everyone But somehow all I get in response is nothin' I don't want to fade away But its not really worth the pain that isn't stoppin We should have just worked thin

Its weird when you see something from the past And see what you wasted was really a prize So you try to find a way to get it back Even if you fail so many tries You get back up and do it over again Because after a while you start to realize You love this thing more than life Hoping one say that they will see you with new eyes

Between us it was never really just friends You could say it was love at first sight But the way you look at it depends Thinking about it now I wasn't right I was the boy that had fun while he pretends Loving the attention that people gave Never truly tying up those loose odds and ends But then you came along changing everything After a while we fell into bad trends Ever since then how its been pretty much the same But now where ones feelings end another begins

When it first started you were a dream But when I woke up things weren't what they seem All the time through we were never a team You are just a mistake one I can't redeem After all of the holes I fell through The things getting me out were you But now I need to find something new Because if I said "I love you" it wouldn't be true Thinking about the times we had are good for a smile But that smile only lasts a little while Nothing long term could possibly come from that bile Even attempting is like walking the green mile

I'm lost in a sea of insecurity But most of it comes from people who aren't me To be completely honest its sad to see Seeing someone so beautiful getting treated like an ugly duckling Stop listening to what people perceive you to be Because even at your worst you act so beautifully

Sometimes I wonder why I ever loved you Then I see those notes where we made those lists After that I remember that night in my driveway You know the one where we had our first kiss Every now and then I do forget To be honest I love the ignorant bliss I'm just full of nostalgia My is full of nothing but memories Most times they are of you And to be honest they are worth remembering But thats all it is worth Its nothing but a good feeling from nostalgia So the feeling of love in the end always fades Along with it the good feeling But I still return to those on most of my good days

In the beginning a seed was planted Soon after a stem grew Into a beautiful metaphor Portraying my love for you But like the living plant My love withered and died too And now all thats left Are withered pedals of nothing new That contribute to nothing Exactly like everything you do

do you, or do you not care? i'm so confused. I miss when you used to just 'happen' to be where ever i was. I miss how you used to do stupid things to make me laugh. I miss when you would still ask me if you could borrow things that you didn't need. do you remember the weeks of school? you kept talking to me, even when I told you not to. i didn't like you then. because i didn't like you last year. I don't know why, sometimes I just dont like people. maybe it's because I thought Katie liked you. Katie was cool. I wanted to be her friend. i couldn't be her friend if I was her competition. It hurts when you walk by, not acknowledgi

"help!" i cry there is no answer "anyone, please!?" i yell and scream and kick and holler and yet noone cares to bother to help an aquaintence, friend, or colleague (whatever i am to them), to tell her it's not the end. so alone i suffer pleaing, praying, for someone, anyone, to come to my aid. for so long i've been at a loss now i think it's time to go remember me as i was before my blade remember me as i was and i will rest in peace at last